We had a great time swimming. After we were done, I strapped him back in and called another car at the street corner. While we waited, it began to rain. I have forgotten the magic of a summer rain on a particularly balmy day. Big fat drops on our faces. Julian's never been in the rain. "This is rain" i said to him. And he scrunched up his nose and smiled, and as I spun around and around with my arms out to the side, I almost cried, I've never felt so alive. And as I looked around at the ugliest street corner in existence, I launched myself into the future, and for one terrifying moment, felt how badly I'm going to miss this place.