It's been years of delibration. Back and forth, am I this or that? I might have even spent several years at a time going in one direction when I really knew inside I wasn't sure if that was right for me. People gave me their input and I listened, being mindful of popular opinion yet trying not to let it sway my own.
I think we all get to a point where we need to decide who we are, which side we're on. Sometimes the best thing for you isn't necessarily what others think is best for you. It might be hard going against what people tell you, people you love and care about. But if they really care about you, they'll accept you no matter your decision. I admit it's been difficult. I've often been afraid of running the risk of the ridicule and disappointment that a certain decision might induce. But, after so much thought, contemplation, and near-tears, I have to take a stand, and I have to be true to myself.
It's taken me 27 1/2 years (half birthday was on Saturday. Holla!) to finally get there but I am there, and I've concluded that this is the kind of person I am: orange juice with pulp.