Anyway, ever since she'd pointed that out, I did begin to see them EVERYWHERE. And over time, it became a symbol for me and a strange source of comfort. I turned it into a magic thing, where every time i saw one I declared it, pointed to it, and regarded it as a small, inconspicuous, gnawed-on little friend. And it became very special, and its symbolism grew, bringing into my being an overall feeling of "Brooklyn." I have passed on this magic to Julian, choosing my words and moment carefully so that he, too, now regards spotting one as a special thing. We're excited, a little bit reverent, and feel like we just pocketed a bit of luck. It fills me with joy to watch him do this.
As we witnessed friend after friend arrive and then leave this place, I began to mentally prepare myself for that mysterious future event, should it ever occur, or at least just try to imagine what it would be like. Over and over again I have done this thing. So many friends. And as this symbolism grew, I told myself, I think that I could maybe leave one day, as long as I bring a bunch of chicken bones and strew them all around me. Then it will feel like home. Friends to find along my way. Because part of the beauty of this place is finding that beauty in typically disgusting circumstances. It's a rugged beauty, unrefined, but glorious, and cuts you straight to your heart.
Now, I have this symbol and I know others must have theirs. And I am convinced that we must find that symbol, give it a name, and make it so that we can take it with us. What it means to be ________, a thing or person or feeling that we hold dear, and make it ours forever. So it doesn't matter where we actually are. We feel this way about those we love, right? This is something important, and I feel strongly about it.
This summer a few friends were moving to faraway places. I wrote an ode, a tribute to these friends, to the chicken bone and what it stands for, to all who have been blessed to the highest degree with experiencing an intense city love such as this, and dedicate it to them and to my friend Katie who opened my eyes to this thing now very dear to me.
And now I will post it on my blog in part for me, because we are moving from Brooklyn. It actually happened. All those years of preparation and visualization and contemplation are paying off immensely. And now that the moment has come, I need my own poem. Here it is:
Chicken Bone, Chicken Bone,
All around is Chicken Bone.
Its presence is a subtle one
Hidden down, cast to the ground
Could be forgotten, did it not abound.
Chicken Bone, Chicken Bone,
A subway stair could be your home
Or on the bus, right next to me
At the curbside, at my feet.
Chicken Bone, Chicken Bone
You are a symbol, a beacon bone,
Signaling all, your Brooklyn home
In the gutter, on my stoop
In my heart now, my Brooklyn heart now.
So now you're free, don't sway, don't droop
On this street, or that one far,
The Chicken Bone is in your heart.
So where'er you're blown, where'er you roam
Where'er there's Chicken Bone, you're home.